Musings

These are all questions that people ask themselves and others as they search for the right pantheon. Firstly, you might feel a calling to a particular God and Goddess, this is usually the God/dess calling Their children to Them, but you might not...if you do then follow your heart and reasearch this God/dess, maybe Their the right deity for you. If you don't get this 'calling' don't worry, all you really have to do is research all the God/desses of a particular culture that your interested in. Learn about your God/dess and pray to Them, see if you feel comfortable with Them and if They respond to you. To build upon connections you should pray and do certain rituals at a certain time, every time to show dedication to Them. When you find the right God/dess, you'll know. It's like when you find the right path, you just know it in your heart, mind and soul.

There are some pantheons that seem to be especially popular, like the Greek or Egyptian, and I've found that some pagans just worship these Gods because They are popular and They get mentioned a lot on pagan web pages. You have to realise that there are many, many Gods out there waiting to be found in a pantheon that is hardly worshipped, whatever other people worship doesn't matter. If you still can't find a pantheon, call to the God and Goddess, in those terms, pray to Them, ask Them for signs in your dreams or meditations of the pantheon to choose.

You also must remember the pantheon you choose will also be the culture that effects the way to worship...and you have to also find what the Gods of different cultures forbid e.g. eating pig's meat during a ritual with near eastern gods will be a HUGE mistake as pig is a forbidden food.

There are many other things so research your type of God and Goddess. The way you structure a ritual will come easily as you develop your connection with your Gods.

Do you ever feel that you've lost the faith because that part of yourself created by mankind and society is teaching you to ignore what's inside.

Well that happened to me recently. I lost touch with the Goddess and God and felt so empty sometimes and also I was very busy and with personal problems this all added up. But I found to rekindle my faith, meditation was the right path for me and I began to wonder is Wicca the right path?

Well it's such an eclectic faith it probably is, The Sabbats and the connection with the Earth is one I want to sustain. It's what keeps me going in an otherwise bleak world.

I've seen a lot of negativity and hate recently but now, the opening for a new beginning is here and thank the Gods it is too. I feel ashamed that I haven't always followed the Sabbats and only paid lip-service to my faith. But, I found that the Goddess and God are ALWAYS with me, always part of my conscious and unconscious. They will always be part of me, because I dedicated myself to them. I may not always remember to say thank you here and now but I know my spirit is eternally grateful to Them for calling me.

The next step is a big one, where I find my feet again in the Wiccan world, between the world. But I have to take it when I'm ready and I know that because I've been here before and I know that the faith is still in my heart, no matter what happened in the past and who tried to control me or undermine me, I will definitely come up stronger with the strength and guidance from the Lord and Lady.

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